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Saturday, June 27, 2009 one kind

*WARNING TO THOSE FILTHY BACKSTABBERS*

quit backstabbing me after reading my blog,my opinion on this blog doesn't need your judgement so quit those FUCKING JUDGEMENTS.just get lost from this blog and never enter it ever again,the exit is just at the top-right side of the site,click and everything will be solve SO now that you know the instructions,follow it and STOP looking at my blog contents.You don't need me to remind you more than one time of who you are.BLOODY IDIOTS.

*is not for the person who i've link on my blog.sry if it concern you all =)*
but i guess some of you might know who is that..support me by repeating what i've written on this post so that those idiots won't backstep again..;D
THANK YOU

xoxo,nica
x3 ya

# posted by Nica at Saturday, June 27, 2009

Friday, June 12, 2009 do i look confusing?o.0

DO I LOOK THAT CONFUSING?IT WAS A SIMPLE QUESTION AND YET SHE COULDN'T ANSWER IT!
THIS HAPPEN WHEN I WAS CHATTING WITH ONE OF MY FRIEND IN MY IMEEM ACC..
ME:SO,WAD R U DOIN SINCE THE IT'S HOLIDAY WEEK?
MIN HWA:WTF?I HAVE NVR HEARD OF HOLIDAY WEEK B4..FOR US IT'S SPIRIT WEEK..
ME:OWH,I'VE NVR HEARD THAT B4..WHR R U STAYING?
MIN HWA:WTF?WAD R U TALKING?I LIVING WHR?U R 'CONFUZZING' ME...

FROM THAT TIME ONWARDS,I NVR WANTED TO REPLY HER ANYMORE COZ I KNW IT'S HARD TO COMMUNICATE WITH DIS TYPE OF PERSON..HOW COULD SHE NOT UNDERSTAND SUCH A SIMPLE QUESTION..EVENDO IF SHE'S FROM SOMEWHERE IN INDIA,LONDON,KOREAN,JAPAN OR SOMEWHERE OUT OF THE MOON SHE'S SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND ._. I GUESS I DON'T HAVE THE ABILITY TO SPEAK ALIEN LANGUAGE...THE THING I HATE THE MOST IS EVERYTIME SHE REPLIES ME SHE MUST ADD THE SENTENCE,''WTF?''...I REALLY HATE WHEN PEOPLE REPLY ME WITH DIS KIND OF ATTITUDE..OR IS IT THE PERSON IN HER COUNTRY REPLACES THE MEANING OF ''WTF'' TO ''HUH''???

ANYway,I have uploaded a poll for you guys to vote~HOPE KEIko doesn't mind giving a vote to herself~ ;D eh,keiko dun get angry when I and Aki-san say u r perverted ar,becoz dis topic has recently become our HOT discussion topic~actually u shld be grateful becoz everytime we talk abt perverted stuff,we rmb u,such good friends eh?o.0 BE GRATEFUL~

TO ALL VISITORS ,FRIENDS AND MY BELOVED FAMILY MEMBERS..PLEASE VOTE AND GIVE COMMENT ON THE TOPIC ;D *APPRECIATES*

and dis appreciation is for people who have voted~

xoxo,nica
x3 all frenz,-finish up the kks project guys!-

# posted by Nica at Friday, June 12, 2009

Monday, June 8, 2009 quotes~

LOVE QUOTES

~ A love begins with a smile,grows with a kiss and end with a teardrop.

~If have to choose between loving you and breathing.I would use my last breath to say I love You.

~You're the kind of guy that can slit my throat,and with my last breath,I;d apologized for getting blood on your shirt

~Never frown when you're sad,because you never know who's falling in love with ur smile

~If you love someone,don't put their name in the heart,put them in circle,a heart can be broken but the circle goes on forerver

~The spaces between ur fingers were made so another persons could fill them

~The shortest word I know is ''I'',the sweetest word I know is ''Love'',and the person I'll never forget is ''you''

~You can close ur eyes to things u don't wanna see,but you can't close ur hearts to things u don't wanna feel

~A tear drop is insignificant in a pool of water,but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone's face

~First dates are awkward,first kisses are heavenly,first loves are irreplaceable,first heartbreaks are unforgetable

~A break up is like a broken mirror,it is better to leave it broken than hurt urself trying to fix it

~Love with passion,serve with love,die with no regrets

INSPIRATIONAL QUOTES

~If you're through hell,keep going
Winston Churchill

~Ytd is history,Tomorrow is a mystery.And today? Today is a gift.That's why we call it the present.
B.Olatunji

~When one door of happiness is closed,another opens;but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the has opened for us.(AGREE!!!)
Helen Keller

~If you want to be happy,be
Leo tolstoy

~In three words I can sum up what is life about :It goes on.
Robert Frost

FRIENDSHIP QUOTES! DEDICATED TO MY LOVELY FRENZ~

~iT'S FRIEND that you can call up at 4am that matters

~A good friend is hard to find,hard to lose and imposible to forget

~Everyone hears what u say,friends listen to what u say,best friends listen to what u don't say

~You cannot say you've lost a friend.If a friendship is capable of ending,is becoz it nvr existed

~A good friend would be thr for you when he breaks ur heart.But ur best friend would go up to him and say '' IS BECOZ U R GAY ISN'T IT?'' (nice one)

~If looking bck hurts u and looking fowards scares u then look to ur side and I'll always be thr for you

~LOOK HERE~
HEY GIRLS,
Here's to the shit we talk.the guys we stalk.the way we shop.the laughs we can't stop.the gossip we spill.the looks we could kill.to having each others backs.to the next morning getting the facts.downing the beers and spilling the tears...we would stay together through the years.

~A best friens is a person who sees the pain in ur eyes when the rest of the world believes the smile on ur face

~You're just jealous that me and my friends can act retarded in public people still loves us.

~I HAve the kind of friends that if my house was burning down,they would be roasting marshmallows and hitting on the HOTT firemen.

~I love my crazy,idiotic,annoying,funny,amazing,clothes stealing,secret keeping,honest,loyal,retarded friends

~A friend is someone who will bail u out of the jail,a best friend is somene who would be sittingnext to u saying..''DAMNN,WE ARE SCREWED UP..BUT DAMNN WAS THAT FUN''

~BEST FRIENDS
YOU'RE SAD,I'M SAD
YOU'RE HAPPY,I'M HAPPY
YOU CRY,I CRY
YOU JUMP OFF THE BRIDGE..
I'M GONNA MISS UR SORRY ASS

,nica
X3,ALL FRENZ~!

# posted by Nica at Monday, June 08, 2009

Sunday, June 7, 2009 same here

Parents aren't taking the full responsibilities on their kids nowadays,they only know how to blame on them when things goes wrong.This is the thing I hate the most,since I experienced it myself before.When I was small I admit that my mum treat us in a proper caring way,because that time my mum wasn't living with my father.Ever since,my mum brought us back to his side,the terror of our life begins.(F.Y.I: my father begged my mum to go back to his side)I couldn't believed it,my mum fall for the trick and went back to his side.

13 years ago they seperated and after 13 years again they seperate again(which means now).Back to 13 years ago,as I remembered he always scolds us just because the business is bad.I don't really get,do he have to put the blame on us?He's the one who begged so that we can live with him again but after we re-unite,what kind of attidute is he giving to us?He says this is to educate us,what sort of education is this?Blaming education?

As far as I know,before this he has re-married twice and he brings his previous sons and daughters to live with us.(around 2-3 years old)When I was walking up the stairs,his daughter kicked me through the glass table,I was lucky enough that I never died yet.My father and my mum knows this incident but they never scolds her,and probably blaming me for being careless.I was almost warded but they say I'm being careless?

It was then I realised that every mistake they done is because of me being careless.Same goes to my mum,blaming me for every mistakes my siblings made.She says I must tutor them(ecs my elder bro),he is more elder than me yet is not mature,so whenever he does anything wrong,my mum would scold me,saying ''You know that is not mature enough,so why didn't you help him?'' then my legs would be covered with rotan marks.When my bro break all the rotan,my mum would say I did it because I did not stop him for doing it.It's my fault.Another two marks of rotan is being print on my skin.I have to admit that my father is more arrogant,he uses belt since he couldn't find rotan anywhere.But when all the rotan is broken,my mum uses the belt,she whacked me like chasing a outside dog away.

She says that all this rotan marks is to remind me what wrongs I have done,I know that I have done something wrong before but I guess I don't deserve all the blames even when it's not mine right?My family before that,was a warm one but as we grew,it's turning cold.All thanks to my ''good'' father,spoiling everything we have.Useless one ever.I promised myself even NOW if he begged me to forgive all his wrong doings,I WON'T(since my siblings says he adores me the most,so he might probably begged me for his forgiveness)SEEK FOR FORGIVENESS NOW?IT'S TO LATE,When there's a tiny hope that this family won't break into half,I hold on to it,trying to repair this relationship between father and daughter.But now,I think there's no point doing it,no matter how hard I try to forgive him I couldn't.When my life have a a streak of light shines in,you covered it.You are the one who close every hope,dreams that I had.When I was officially a librarian,I wanted so much to tell you that I had pass and now officially a librarian.But I guess that you wouldn't know,even when it's FORERVER because I don't have the thoughts of telling you.

Everytime when my friends talks about their father,I would just sit and listen because I don't have the courage to tell them about what father I have before.When they asks me,I would just reply ''My parents are seperated'',if it's for my mum she would say'' He's dead'' or ''He's nothing to do with me''.I wanted to tell them that you're once good to me but then instead of telling them that I told about all the rotten backgrounds I had when I was with you,it wasn't me who wanted to say that it was my heart,no matter how heart-breaking the stories are,I told them with a happy expression but deep inside I was deeply hurt.When my friends scolded you(my father),I thought I should be happy but then I could only smile and agree,I couldn't be happy.I wanted to be happy because I had leave this useless father,I wanted to agree with all my friends thoughts that he is a asshole BUT I couldn't forget all the happy moments when he's with me.W.T.H?

I suppose faded memories couldn't be be recovered but this memories keep on playing in my head,like it doesn't wants to be dissapear.In this year 2009,my family is finally break into half and I'm happy with it.At least,I couldn't be blame again.I'm staying with my mum and siblings,my mum emotions recovered a lot since there's a lot of things that she has to go through.She's now open-minded and cheerful,I supposed thanks to her friends.As for me,I try to forget the rotten background,trying to recover emotions(sticking ard those cheerful ones),on the status of repairing my mood.I was always wondering nowadays,what if I see him around again?what shld I do?what shld I say?STUPID THOUGHTS.It's much more easier for me to go through the tough path since my friends are with me.Those who accompanied me through this matter is really a good one because they know that going through with a friend without a father is quite hard to handle.But still their laughter never fails to make me laugh,their smile never fails to make me smile.

I admit they are helpful since I'm able to recover,and to Cel ,don't worry you will sure become a cheerful person soon,as Keiko,don't curse your parents anymore,and you'll be more happy because i'm here with you !

I really appreciate those laughter spread by Keiko Yukie,Sarah,Cel,Kairin Momochi,Anis and other friends.Those are medicine that I used to recover all along.Special thanks to the first four because for listening to all the craps that I have said all along in school.Individual thanks to
::.::Li Ann::.::
1) making me smile and laugh always,
2)cheering me up(without failing!),
3)always there when i needed you
4) giving me nice japanese names-AIKAWA HARUHI-

::.::Sarah::.::
1) listen to all craps I said(abt my father),
2)making me smile ;D
3)always there when i needed you

::.::Kairin Momochi::.::
1)comfort me always
2)being able to help me express my anger(towards you!)
3)always there when i needed you
4)didn't fail to make me smile
5)always make me laugh when I'm in a emo corner
6)never abandon me as a friend before

::.::Cel::.::
1)makes me smile
2)makes me laugh
3)draws me in anime version-the cute one!-
4)changing my japanese name into another ver.-AIR TAWAR-

IN anyway,thanks guys! No other words can express my gratitude towards you all~SMILE!

,nica
x3 all frenz-have a nice week!-

# posted by Nica at Sunday, June 07, 2009

Saturday, June 6, 2009 post it

I and my lil sis went for a karaoke yesterday.

Location:Veronica's Residency
Time :5-7 pm
Song :Oldies,Backstreetboys
Stereo Type:VCD 2.0

My grandmother is nagging from the starting to the ending of the song.She says it's too loud.I wanted to reply her IF IT'S TOO LOUD,YOU'RE TOO OLD.But since I'm a good girl that doesn't fight back I never replied her.

Neh,actually I'm bored,today was blistering hot,made me sweat the whole day._.

Wanted to send some condolence since one of my 'friend' just passed away yesterday.It was quite sad since he passed away on his birthday which is 5th June.He just came down from China to met his mother,then went vacation with her.When going for a swim somewhere at Redangbeach,he was found died in the seawater.Aik,it's unlucky,he came down to M'sia on Chinese New Year.It's only been 5 months since he was here.I met him before,he was kind,gentle but also a timid person.He doesn't talk much.When he comes for a visit with his mum on New Year,I and my lil sis played cards with him since he's so lonely.My cousins doesn't talk to him(gt no idea why)..Let me see,he is officially 20 ytd since he's 19 b4 that.Lose another friend.His mother treats me nice,even when New Year she gives me more than 1 ang pao.I pity her becoz that's the only son she has..But anyway,she says she's gonna sue the authorities for the son's death.Hopes he rest in peace.

In any way,hope you guys have fun on this holiday week!Upcoming birthdays is on the next month JULY!

1)Eugene 1st July
2)Jasmin-aunt- 1st july
3)Li Ann 17 july
4)Celia 22 july
5)Sook Li 19 july
6)Rachel 24 July

Did I miss anyone?Or did I write the wrong date? o.0 kindly inform me so I can correct it ;D PRESENTS!

xoxo,nica
x3 all frenz-may rest in peace-

# posted by Nica at Saturday, June 06, 2009

Thursday, June 4, 2009 interestng topic(everyone come and comment)!

TOOK KEIKO CONVERSATION BETWEEN ME AND EDIT IT~

Gaara is hotter/sexier than Kakashi..Keiko and me had been negotiating on this topic for hours(actually not)...

Keiko: Konnichiwa Aikawa-san! What are you doing? I'm bored off my shiri(butt)

Aikawa:(Replies 3 hours later)Gome, for the late reply..Was helping my mum out.. Wad r ya doin?

Keiko:Reading yaoi manga...

Aikawa: -.- u bought a GAY manga or internet? HARDCORE or softcore? I bet 100% hard..I'm gonna tell Shiiriya about it!

Keiko: Internet... And it's not that hardcore.

Aikawa: ....Interesting, "not that hardcore.. Keiko realli is a top 10 pervert(agree to wad cel says)

Keiko: Lolz... I'm bored. Anymore sexy pics of my brother-in-law?

Aikawa: Go search 4 ur own husband sexy pics la since u so free lolx....

Keiko: Oh, believe me, I have some VERY sexy pics of my Kakashi-kun~

Aikawa:Oh, i do believe because you are a pervert.Now take pictures of ur husband, open your puppy eyes as big as possible then stare at it..When u r done tell me wat u think...

Keiko: (^. .^) nosebleeds! *pulls kakashi- kun into the room*

Aikawa:Say... Wad were u doin wit kakashi-kun b4 in the room?=x chating, playing darts or molesting him?

Keiko:LOLZ... Err... molesting him? He's too sexy too resist.. He molested me backanyways.. Lolz.. Joking....(secretly wishes he wasn't)

Aikawa: My opinion, Gaara is more sexier/hotter than kakashi

Keiko:No, he isn't! Kakashi-kun is MUCH MORE SEXIER! Speaking of sexy, kakashi just took off his shirt.God, he is such a tease!

Aikawa:JESUS! HE took off his shirt? That's not sexy nor hot... Gaara took off everything except his boxers.. Now that's sexy.. U have to accept the reality that Gaara is sexier

Keiko:Hey, Kakashi is sexy enough to make a person with too much blood to die !And by the way, why did Gaara take everything off except his boxers? What doyou plan on doing tonight?

Keiko: Kakashi took off EVERYTHING and climbed into the bed next to me. See ya. I'm going to enjoy my night. Joking, not really though...

Aikawa:Only baka believes that..Anyway u have really wild imagination.. I'm planningto do what all couples do at the first nite with GAARA..JK i'm not surprised if u done that with Kakashi...

Keiko:Me and Kakashi did it in your room before! Just kidding, but we did it in Kairin's room before...(obviously I'm joking... I'm still a virgin and Kakashi ain't real... Unfortunately.)

Aikawa: WTH? Can't believe it dude.. Btw, wat's up with Kairin, any news about her?

Keiko:No. I thought you said you wouldn't be surprised if me and Kakashi had ... before...(fill in the blank yourself.. I was feeling too happy to care whetherit was perverted)

Aikawa: U made it so obvious.. Nt surprised but I haven't accepted the reality yet.. Lolx

Keiko:Haha. Better delete that message. I'm putting this on my blog.(Obviously)

Aikawa: Our interesting discussion on who is sexier? Putting that on blog? or are you reading yaoi?

Keiko: Putting on my blog. After this I'm going to enjoy a shower with my husband.(Joking)

Aikawa: I'm looking foward to read it! Go ahead n post.. Have a gud shower, jana!

Keiko:Jana!

AT LAST,KEIKO AGREE THAT GAARA IS SEXIER!!! ;D

(EVERYONE IS WELCOME TO COMMENT ON WHO IS SEXIER/HOTTER)!!!

# posted by Nica at Thursday, June 04, 2009

Wednesday, June 3, 2009 HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNNI~!!!

HAPPY birthDAY to YunNi~!

MAY all ur wishes come true!always be by ur side~All the best to you on ur special day ya ;D You're the best lil sis I ever had,remember that!BE always~

Happy 13th birthday :) ........

Happy 13th birthday ;D........

Happy 13th birthday :D........

Three big cake for you =p Hope you like it ;D

smile always,you will look more pretty and cute !

beauty,wisdom & happiness-

beauty,wisdom & happiness-

beauty,wisdom & happiness-

xoxo,nica

x3 all ~-smile yun!-

# posted by Nica at Wednesday, June 03, 2009

She Pleaded

The verdict